Like why Channel 8 decides to show 宝莲灯 during dinnertime.

Like why my classmates refuse to acknowledge that I'm pretty and smart.

Like why we have useless CT rotting sessions.

Like why Mrs Ang assumes that we write as fast as she talks.

Like why Ms. Lee Jin Loong Clarence insists that I'm not a girl. (Then lady lor. Muahahaha!)

But the thing that baffles me most today is: Why on the dear earth did 夏日风 get into the next round? Their singing makes me cringe and their dance moves make me laugh. They always get the lowest score and by any chance, they always get into the next round. Life is so, so unfair.

There is like a trend in all these talent search competitions. There will always be one sub-standard competitor who never fails to get in round after round. Then this sub-standard competitor will be hated by everyone. Then everyone will vote like crazy to a) boot out the sub-standard competitor and/or b) prevent the person they like from being booted out by the sub-standard competitor.

And as always Mediacorp will benefit.

Nevertheless I'm quite happy today cos 2 groups sang 5566's songs! =D Wah very proud of 5566. They should sing more of 5566's songs, sure get in one.

I wanted to pack my table today but laziness got the better of me. I woke up at 1.30, ate breakfast, watched tv, ate lunch, slept, watched 皆大欢喜, went out and now I'm back at home typing this utterly sian entry. My messy table remains untouched.

I shall pack it later.

Started watching Goong yesterday! The female lead is damn funny!! And she's stupider than me (which is not saying something since I'm so smart muahahaha). She's quite cute lah, same hairstyle as Zhenshu. Watching the show reminds me of Xinniang 18, cos of the pre-arranged marriage and Korean traditional costumes and all the 礼节.

I was a little disappointed in the Crown Prince. He doesn't look like a Crown Prince leh! Not my type of shuai ge. I prefer Yul. He looks abit like Renfu! Hahahaha. They should cast Yul as the Crown Prince instead of whatshisname.

Channel U going to show it soon! Woohoo! Watching it on TV beats watching it on youtube with lousy subtitles.

Haven't been blogging for a week cos I didn't have the time. Was reading GOST for the past week. Not that it really helped in any way. Today Ms. Lee Jin Loong Clarence asked me why I didn't update my blog and I told her/him/?, "Cos I never go online what." A bit no link even though I thought it made sense at that point of time. Wahahahahaha

I am also very proud to say that I broke my personal record for 2.4! Since like lower sec or something hahahahaha. And I attribute my success to Huo Yuan Jia （霍霍霍霍霍霍霍霍霍!）It is the Official Song for Running. Thank you Jay Chou for deciding to write that song.

Joan the ex-RJ girl with tongue cancer passed away in her sleep on Wednesday. When I heard about it I felt this sense of loss which I can't really explain myself. It's like, she's a young teen with a promising future and many unfulfilled dreams and now everything comes to an end for her. It seems unfair to see that she's been fighting against cancer for so long and now all this fight has come to nothing, it's sad to read about her goals she wrote in her own blog and realise that they can never be achieved again. She still had such a long way to go. And now cancer had taken everything away.

Which reminds me about death. What happens after we die? Will we begin a new phase of life or will death mark the end of life? Will we have after-death experience? Will we still have after-death consciousness? Will we still remember our loved ones? Will we remember all the good and bad times we had when we were alive? Can our souls linger on earth? Can we still exist on earth as ghosts?

Sometimes when you sleep, you wouldn't have any dreams and after you wake up, you dunno what happened during the period of time when you were sleeping. It's like a moment you closed your eyes, the next moment you wake up. I call it the temporary loss of consciousness. I always think that after we die, this happens to us, the loss of consciousness part, the inability to know what happened when we are sleeping part. We wouldn't know what will happen to us after we die, no departed souls, no after-death experience, nothing. Just empty shells. Which makes it all the more scarier since we will forget our family and friends, the memories we had when we were alive. We might even forget that we ever existed.

Ok perhaps then this is where religion comes in as it gives us a sense of comfort. At least it will tell us what happens after we die. Like we may be reincarnated or go to heaven.

I'm quite afraid of death.

To brighten up this otherwise gloomy post--this is another reason why QQ should go copyright his name:

HC guys won bball! James' hypothesis is once again wrong as expected. Very very very happy. But somehow the match seemed too short leh, it seemed like the guys only played the first 2 quarters. Still, it was an exciting match cos both teams were very strong and my idol got to play and score :D

I think Colin should be honoured. Despite being terribly ill he still went down to play. And you could tell it was honestly very hard for him to do so cos he kept touching his chest in pain. I'm proud of Hon Chan too! Cos he's also a zhonghuarian and he was good on the court.

But the best was my idol. He very shuai :D :D :D :D :D

After the match met up with some E7 peeps and as usual we became crazy lol! Another round of cheering (Soh Sook Lee can go fly kite!) and a whole lot of nonsensical chatting, like how the boliao guys counted how many mouths I took to finish my burger (26 mouths).

In the end I got so tired I fell asleep during tuition.

Life's review on Da Vinci's code was horribly bad. Only 2 stars. It said the movie lacked logic etc etc. Well...I dunno, but sometimes Life sets its standards for movies pretty high. Like how it gave a bad review for Doubt but I thought it wasn't as bad as the article had said.

Sometimes, you act out of your character without knowing why. You know it's wrong and not-you to do so, but you still do it all the same without any reason. Then you'll start thinking why on earth you did whatever you did and you'll become very irritated cos you are very disappointed in yourself.

Haha Fengyi did I say that? I can't remember. Maybe you know another weiqi who said that then it'll be quite funny.

I'm still very high from yesterday's vball matches and cheering!

Congrats to the vball girls who clinched gold! It was a highly exciting match, which the spectators got pretty much involved in! All the cheering, screaming, jumping etc etc etc. I think I was quite agitated cos I kept scolding NY whenever they did the Ooh sa thing. Haha.

The councillors were like -_-. Very disappointed in them.

The guys' match was even more exciting than the girls'! Intense fight. The ball moved so quickly and the guys' actions were so swift and powerful! But cos it's AJ VS TJ so the anxiety level was much lower. Anyhow Sook and I still sat with AJ and cheered for them. At the front rows somemore. I think everyone could see us cos it was like 2 specks of beige-brown in the sea of blue. And I was desperately trying to hide myself from this AJ photographer cos if I get caught on camera it'll be quite paisei. But oh well, pretty girls will always be sought after by photographers :D

Sook and I were highly entertained during the match cos there were so many funny things going on. Like the overaged vball player, Hongyi, this funny AJ guy who thanked his opponent during the match and TJ cheers! The Fight Kill one was very cool and we were like in awe of it. So everytime we would secretly hope that TJ did the Fight Kill cheer. Partly because this cool TJ councillor would turn to face AJ at the end of the cheer. VERY COOL.

AJ was very enthu during the match! Some of them played the malay boy tune which I like so much (those ZH times) and they were all very organised in their cheering so it sounded loud and united. And the councillors were very thoughtful. They even bought food for the spectators. Unlike our councillors. They brought nothing except a stupid drum.

It was sad that most of the HC people left after the girls' match, cos not many stayed back to cheer for the girls when they went to receive their trophies. Sook, yingjie and I stood on the bench and screamed for them during prize presentation. Everyone around us was silent HAHA. I even waved at the girls. But they all never wave back :(

So at the end of the day I learnt AJ cheers by heart. I got so high I sang their school song and chanted "Holiday!" with them after their guys won. I think Sook was quite paisei. Even as we left I was still cheering. For Ksoh just that he didn't know wahahahahaha.

The funny thing is we are going to fight with AJ tomorrow for bball. Now friends become rivals. Very weird. But I still love my ho ninny.

HC has redeemed itself slightly by cancelling CT and letting us go down to support the bball guys! Very very very happy :)))))) I'll be so excited for the entire day tomorrow!

I think it's quite sad when Miss Neo said if there's nothing good coming out from a movie, she won't watch it. Then what about entertainment? Movies nowadays are mostly about entertainment what.

Tom Hanks' intelligent level is unbelievably low. I can't believe he thought he was going to act as Da Vinci.

Soh Sook Lee can go fly kite!

She looks damn damn damn good with black hair! Her best-looking hair ever. It's like with every new album she reaches a new 境界, as well as a higher level of income. Wonder what she'll do with so much money which I doubt she can finish spending.

I was looking through the songs in her new album when I found this:

Seriously QQ should apply copyrights for using his name. Like that he can be as rich as Jolin, and his friends can benefit from it too.

Mr Brown and Miyagi are 2 damn funny people. Please go listen to their podcasts at mrbrownshow.com. Their "No More Birds" podcast had me laughing for a long time despite playing it for dunno how many times.

I read Life's article about Da Vinci code. It's quite interesting to see how the stuff Brown wrote about the L (dunno how to spell) Museum in the novel differs from the actual museum. I want to go to the museum to have a look myself. Now in Paris they have many Da Vinci code tours, where they bring the tourists through the novel and explain the differences between fiction and reality. But actually come to think of it if Brown didn't write the book the people in the museum wouldn't bother to waste their time to count the number of glass plates in the inverted pyramid, or something like that. Neither would people care where Mona Lisa is placed.

Someone please watch Da Vinci code with me.

Let's all pray that the school will 大发慈悲 and let us go support bball on Friday instead of making us rot during the useless CT session.

Time is passing so quickly I'm starting to be scared. There's some kind of a suppressed anxiety within me as I see the days, weeks and months flash by. Soon the much-dreaded "A"s will come. I wonder how on earth am I going to survive the entire month. :(

Have you ever wondered if life is actually like The Sims? We are all merely Sims characters and we are being controlled by a larger someone who is playing the game. It's like now that someone is probably commanding me to use the computer. Then later that someone will click on the bathtub and command me to take a bath. And while I'm using the com I have thought bubbles which can only be seen by that someone.

Today at the Hwa Chong canteen (wow wow) I attempted a very difficult gymnastic stunt which has never been done since kindergarden. I finished my trusty barley drink and was walking towards the dustbin when I stepped on this puddle of unknown brown liquid. I slipped and almost fell. While I slipped I did a 1/4 split which was unfortunately spotted by MR OJM. It was so embarassing lah!!! According to Mr OJM I looked funny. If I really did a split I will just die like that and tommorrow's ST headlines will be "JC Girl Dies as She Scores a 10 for HCC Gymnastics heats" or something like that.

Yesterday I was rudely awakened by the PAP Aljunied GRC, who went round the estates thanking those who had voted for them. Heard over the loudhailer/mike/whatever loud-sound producer:" 母亲节快乐！谢谢你们投 PAP 一票！Happy Mothers' Day! Thank you for voting PAP!" I thought it was funny for them to say "Happy Mothers' Day" first.

HC VS AJ in bball finals on Friday!! I want to go I want to go I want to go. They better select our class to go for cheering.

I was forced to be reminded of you today. 过了这么久， 还以为自己早已彻底放开了，原来还是无法完全地释怀。

I have a slight cold. I dunno how I got it.

I keep thinking today is Sunday.

I thought last Sunday was Mothers' Day.

I am pretty.

I am smart.

Having menses sucks big time cos you are constantly in a shitty mood.

In connect-four, the person who connects four seeds first wins the game, not the person who connects the most number of seeds. So my dear friend thought he won cos he connected five seeds. I'm sorry but well, I connected four first. :D Muahahahahahahahaha...聪明反被聪明误。And the funny thing was he happily drew my winning seed for me. I think that knock made him a little less smart. But you have to admit I become smarter liao hor :)))))

I won leh! Woohoo~

But I think that was like the only good thing that happened today. If I have an almanac, it'll probably write my 忌 today was taking buses.

We were on the bus to Lot 1. Suddenly the bus took a sharp turn and I fell out of my seat. That was not all. After some time Chao Hsiang told me we were reaching the place and so I thought we were nearing the bus stop we needed to alight from. I kindly got up, told everyone that we were reaching soon, and quickly pressed the bell in case we missed our stop. Yah and a short while later the bus turned into the interchange. SO STUPID. And then these 2 stupid NY girls said, "Which idiot pressed the bell?"

I was fuming. THEY CALLED ME AN IDIOT. I didn't know the bus would turn into the interchange what! I was so angry I scolded them behind their backs. They are going to get bad karma. They will fall down whenever they walk, they will be laughed at for their lives, bad things will befall them. How dare they call me an idiot. Idiot leh! When I was just being kind. UFKIHGFDKIHQWY89QRWU90U901E2HKNGFDGFDSFDSFDSFD()**(*(*(^&*^^&%^%$!&*^*(&()&o(u{_(opukihdarfyhsruiIOYUGFKUHGGFD

Then when I reached my house's bus stop, I stood up from my seat and my head knocked against the black round aircon thing. :( ARGH

KBOX was well, KBOX. You do nothing in KBOX except sing. I guess the mood was a little dampened cos of some bad news but it's ok we can always go KBOX some other time. :) Oh I almost died in the room cos 2 stupid people attempted to assault me by trying to touch my chin. I hate it when people touch my chin, it's like equal to molesting me. Touch my chin again and you die.

I went to the toilet in the midst of all the singing when I saw 4 ah lians sitting on the toilet floor smoking. I almost died. Stinky cigarette smell filled up the entire bloody toilet and I could feel my lungs blackening every second. And I couldn't hold my breath for so long so I'm forced to inhale second-hand smoke!!!! So irritated but I couldn't do anything like stare at them cos if I did, that would be the last thing I did before I say bye bye to the world. These smokers are so inconsiderate you know. They smoke like it's nobody's business and poor people like me have to suffer for no reason by breathing in the lung-blackening air. And our risk of getting lung cancer is higher. UNFAIR. After that I kept smelling stinky cigarette smell everywhere.

After this singing session I decided I don't really like him.

It's raining! I always like it when it rains at night. I'll put my hand out of the window, feel the raindrops and smell the wonderful smell of rain. Raining at night makes me feel happy and contented :)

恶作剧 is a nice song :)

I was eating my dinner one day when I suddenly thought of this question. Today I went to ask my friends and their answers were all very interesting.

Minsee started laughing, Pannie's eyes widened (with shock/disbelief?), OJM said if it's vacuum the ant will be floating in the air, which is scientifically wrong since there's still gravitational force. But I like Fengyi's answer best. "The ant will die of heart attack." Ahahahahaha...Fengyi you very cute! :)))

Tag and tell me what's your answer to this question yay =D

Anyway Minsee was suggesting that I compile all my questions and publish a book. I believe it will be a highly interesting read. Then I'll hit the charts of all bookstores islandwide, some bigshot director will ask to adapt my book into a film, I'll be so damn famous and I'll be bloody rich!!! Muahahahahahahaha!!!! *ching ching ching* Then I'll probably make it to the top 100 Most Influential People in the World along with Rain :))))))))

I did a very stupid thing last night. I was packing my bag and looking through the mountains of notes and tutorials for my xiao shuo. Within a few secs I found this thick set of notes with lots of Chinese words and so I thought it was my xiao shuo. I was so proud of myself cos I found what I wanted so quickly and went to sleep happily. Today during LEP I took the darn stack out and realised it was my song ci notes. ARGH SO STUPID. So angry with myself for making such a stupid mistake. :(

Next time when my husband wants me to fill his rice bowl, I'll dump the entire rice pot over his head.

The media talk today was very enriching. It showed me new insights about mass media in Singapore and the perspective from S'pore's media itself. Now I am more inspired to study mass comm. :) But what I cannot accept is that media workers have to compromise their principles and ideals with commercialisation cos I feel that the most crucial and fundamental thing about working in media is your passion and beliefs. It's what drives you to work, see. If you have to sacrifice these principles and passion for commercialisation then isn't sort of defeating the core issue of being passionate about your job? Then what's the point in working in the media industry?

But as this teacher said, "Reality bites." Evil commercialisation.

Whenever I see Steve Chia I'll remember the time he smiled at us during Parliament when Emm and I were laughing like 2 crazy women over dunno what.

I want to watch Da Vinci Code! I think Da is an interesting word cos it stands for "the" as well. So Da Vinci Code becomes Da Vinci Code with the "Da" in the "The" sense. So it becomes The Vinci Code. Very cool yeah.

KBOX tomorrow! Can practically feel the excitement and anticipation tingling within me. The joys of singing :)))))

The other day I dreamt of Estha and Rahel (the 2 characters from my Lit text). I was having BBQ-steamboat with them and we were BBQ-ing pork. Estha was a very happy teen in my dream, unlike the Estha in the novel. Rahel was another happy teen.

From this dream, I conclude that I watch too many Korean shows (BBQ-ing pork) and read too much of GOST. By the way I'm finishing GOST soon! My first achievement in reading my Lit texts since I haven't finished reading the 3 Gothic texts which were bought last year. Frankenstein still hadn't created the monster, Rochester just fell off the horse and I think I only read the first 2 chapters of Hotel de Dream. Anyway I recommend GOST to Emmeh and Sookeh. I think you'll like it.

I must blog about the embarassing incident in Carrefour on Sat. I was at the cushion corner happily taking photos of this nice cushion while my parents went off to buy their own stuff. So while they shopped I had the honour of taking care of the stupid uZap and other silly stuff they bought previously. In the midst of my phototaking frenzy, this Carrefour guy came up to me and said I couldn't take any pictures. During this mini hooha my lovely brother ran away and hid somewhere, without warning me that trouble was looming ahead. I was so embarrased argh!!!! I apologised and walked away, dragging the uZap and whatever there was with me. The uZap was so heavy I could't lift it up I had to drag it across the floor. So bloody embarassing!!!!! I looked so bloody lang2 bei4!

Actually I think the most embarrasing part was when I had to drag the darn uZap across the floor. RAH RAH RAH RAH.

Today I played the longest ever connect-four game with Mr Willy Mah. It was scary playing with him cos he kept smiling so you couldn't tell what on earth was he thinking and he put the seeds so randomly you couldn't spot any pattern at all. Playing with him was so mentally draining. It's like playing connect-four with Willy is equal to doing a 3-hour LEP or Lit paper. But in the end he let me win. This is what I call 有风度. 有风度，Clarence Lee. 有风度.

I wonder if doing homework is part of mugging cos personally I don't see doing homework as mugging. I always think mugging as studying and memorising notes. It's like how I see taking naps and sleeping different too. Taking naps are for a short while while sleeping is for a long while. So I always make the point to differentiate between the two even though taking a nap is technically sleeping.

I think I'm weird that way.

I'm waging a war against Oh Big-mouth Jian Ming. YOU ARE SO GOING TO DIE YOU BETTER DON'T LET ME SEE YOU ON WEDNESDAY.

Edit: There was a bball match today!!! But I had bloody S paper so angry arghhhh.

Today during LEP I poked Oh Jian Ming's voodoo doll fervently and almost immediately after that I hurt my knee. During GP I bit so hard on my sweet (by accident) I thought my teeth broke. Then I nearly choked on the sweet.

Next time I shall treat that voodoo doll with due respect.

No Aussie in June. I think I'll ask my parents to go Taiwan at the end of the year cos I'm missing the place like nuts! Especially the TV shows since poor me got no SCV at home and Shilin where everything is just so nice :))))

Anyway I think the cafe uncles are damn disgusting! They are getting overboard with their words already. It's because not many students stand up to them and really scold them for their perverse behaviour, normally we'll just smile awkwardly and ignore them. And so these disgusting uncles think that they are extremely funny and that we accept whatever they say and they use this as a driving force to continue their nonsense, which is getting more and more nonsensical. Bloody hell. Seeing these chee ko peks reminds me of Xiaxue's entry about Yangtze Cinema.

I've decided that next time if I go to the cafe, I will record whatever disgusting things these chee ko peks said. Then they'll get sacked and receive their due punishments. Muahahahaha! I really buay tahan when people think they can bully girls cos they think we are weak and wouldn't stand up for what we think is right. We must 给他们点颜色看。

Next week is a good week cos there are only 2 school days! I want to go K-box next week. Long time no sing.

http://www.ford.com.my/allnewfocus/index.shtml Go try it it's damn stupid.

If you haven't watched the entire show (Read:Minsee) you don't have to read this entry since it will kinda spoil the show. Yay.

I think it's a good drama on the whole, cos it's funny and the couple is so bloody sweet you'll want to kill the girl and be with the guy wahahaha. You'll start sighing aww-ingly, wish that you'll have a boyfriend who is as bloody sweet as Hejun and all the fantasies will flood you. And then you'll wake up to reality and realise that such a sweet guy is impossible in real life cos you only have stupid guys who fight with you for no good reason and who insist on playing stupid games (which will only result in you losing) otherwise they'll threaten you with stupid songs. Then you'll start to be a cynical and angsty teen.

Anyway, yup I think it's addictive and funny in the beginning when the couple quarrels over Small Little Things cos you realise that they actually love each other, just that the guy doesn't know it (dramatic irony!). And they are always very cute when they quarrel. But when they realise they love each other, I guess the show emphasises more on sweetness instead of the funny parts cos the guy loves the girl so damn lot (which is abit impossible actually). I think the pregnancy part is abit too rushed out cos it's impossible for the girl to be pregnant so quickly unless a month or so lasped in the show unknown to our knowledge. Or maybe the director thought people watching the show will not use their brains to think about such details. Aha! But she/he forgot smart people like Emma and I watch the show too.

The grandfather dying part near the end was rather draggy to me. It spanned over 2 discs I think. It's quite unneccessary to drag the entire part actually. I was quite mean when the grandfather died, cos I was laughing at how Hejun cried. His cry and laughter got no difference one.

And I think Hejun's friend looks like Adriano. Ahahahahahahaha!

Despite watching the VCD, I still watch the Channel U one. Watching it makes me in a good mood.

My dad told me we may go to Aus during June hols. I was quite excited about it but I realised it would be winter when we go there. BAH.

Congrats to Mr Ming for passing NAPFA! :) Now you can celebrate my birthday aren't you happy muahahahahaha!

Sometimes I really wonder why why why why why why why must those %$^*%%*#!#^ guys bully me. Either they enjoy being beaten up, or they derive great satisfaction and entertainment from irritating me. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY. In the end who suffers the most? Me. Both physically and mentally.

Like today, I witnessed great, never-seen-before team spirit and unity among the guys in my class. Because they all bullied me hmph. :(

I tell you, you all will suffer from bad karma. Bully me again and you die. I will cut your fringe, I will make your hair curl even more, I will write "gay" all over your stuff, and I will impose a lifelong ban on the connect-four game despite any silly song you feel like singing to the rest of the world. HMPH. *)^(%$$#(~!(%$(^%(^%())(*$$#$^%&&$#$#&!&%$"*^%

*breathes* Now I can blog properly.

I think there's a difference between having no ideals and knowing that ideals don't work in a pragmatic society like Singapore. Knowing that idealism doesn't work here doesn't mean that I don't have ideals. It's like knowing that smoking is bad for health doesn't necessarily mean that one doesn't smoke. Who doesn't know that smoking is bad for health? But so many people out there still smoke. It's the same with the whole idea of having ideals.

Perhaps it's a sad part about our education system for producing practical people (alliteration!). Like what my dear friend said, "It's because of people like us S'pore 才会这样." But I think if you look at a neutral angle the only thing that works is pragmatism. Having ideals alone doesn't guarantee anything. I don't suppose any country in the world can refute that, especially so in Singapore. I think that's the thing to be agreed upon. You can have all the great ideals under the sun, but in the end it all boils down to the fact that these account for almost nothing. Saying and advocating them is one thing, but executing them is another totally different thing. Executing them is especially hard.

Take presidential elections for example. The candidates can bombard us with their ideals and beliefs and promise us a whole truckload of things. But for so many years, it's all talk but no action. I don't see many changes anywhere, despite the promises the president made. Maybe we should blame the school admin haha. So, how did the president's ideals help us in any way? When we vote, we hope to see concrete achievements, not just aspired by whatever the president says.

I'm not pro-PAP or anything, but I think we cannot deny the results the govt has achieved for so many years cos the govt really did its work. I think I may sound shallow, but the whole issue about renovating HDB flats has shown the capability of the govt. My flat underwent renovations to the point that I really feel it improved the residents' lives generally. When I go to other areas of Hougang which is under the opposition party, one can tell that the state of the flats are relatively "less good" (I think "worse" is a very strong word). I think for 小人物, we just want to lead comfortable lives.

I don't deny that opposition parties do provide us with new perpectives, but they are limited by several factors. They can give aspiring speeches, but executing what they promise is another different matter.

Actually, I dunno what on earth am I saying. I suddenly feel very old talking about these things. Wahahahahahaha!

Xinniang 18 is very nice! I'm always in a good mood after watching it woooooo :))))) Today I was in such a good mood I actually listened during Econs!!! Hejun is so so so so so so so so sweet awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. But then such a guy doesn't exist in real life. Oh well.