Walao. It's zhong qiu jie and I can't even carry lanterns, light sparklers and play with candles. The only form of celebration is eating one pathetic piece of mooncake. Plus there is no moon to see. Bloody haze.

Hai. My lit is utterly, utterly horrendous. 18/50 for a stupid essay! How to take As like that. I was so stressed and worried for Lit I couldn't even revise other stuff properly. Even the hope to at least hit a C for Lit becomes almost non-existent.

It's like seeing how others can write Lit essays so well and how they can throw in quotes as if they swallowed the entire novel makes me feel stupid. Cos I can never understand how they manage to do it and I know I can never be like them. I think doing well for Lit takes talent too. To Aug Wong Yvonne is not that bad only. Walao like that I might as well knock my head against the wall.

This week is almost over. 3 weeks left!!!!!!! Crap crap crap crap. The thought of Goong showing soon is not doing much help too. Hai.

The stress is definitely getting to me. A few days back I dreamt that all my teeth dropped off and I needed to put dentures. Nowadays I keep getting mood swings and it's getting harder to hold my temper. Hai. It's so hard for me to tolerate even the little things...getting irritated very easily. Today in the library I was so frustrated with the stupid noisy and LOUD J1s (who probably have lungs and diaphragms 10 times larger than mine and who think they own the entire bloody school and who think everyone else in the school don't have to study for the rest of the year anymore and who are blind to their poor seniors desperately trying to get some proper work done) I kept cursing them while doing Maths. Seriously they should be banned from the library. Damn irritating.

Plus I laugh alot for stupid reasons. Think I am going siao. And I'm scared that I will drop dead one day cos lack of sleep. And I'm scared that I will fall sick during As. And I'm scared that my As will be screwed. Crap crap crap crap.

And now I have an headache. Argh shit irritating.