Haven't been blogging for a week cos I didn't have the time. Was reading GOST for the past week. Not that it really helped in any way. Today Ms. Lee Jin Loong Clarence asked me why I didn't update my blog and I told her/him/?, "Cos I never go online what." A bit no link even though I thought it made sense at that point of time. Wahahahahaha

I am also very proud to say that I broke my personal record for 2.4! Since like lower sec or something hahahahaha. And I attribute my success to Huo Yuan Jia （霍霍霍霍霍霍霍霍霍!）It is the Official Song for Running. Thank you Jay Chou for deciding to write that song.

Joan the ex-RJ girl with tongue cancer passed away in her sleep on Wednesday. When I heard about it I felt this sense of loss which I can't really explain myself. It's like, she's a young teen with a promising future and many unfulfilled dreams and now everything comes to an end for her. It seems unfair to see that she's been fighting against cancer for so long and now all this fight has come to nothing, it's sad to read about her goals she wrote in her own blog and realise that they can never be achieved again. She still had such a long way to go. And now cancer had taken everything away.

Which reminds me about death. What happens after we die? Will we begin a new phase of life or will death mark the end of life? Will we have after-death experience? Will we still have after-death consciousness? Will we still remember our loved ones? Will we remember all the good and bad times we had when we were alive? Can our souls linger on earth? Can we still exist on earth as ghosts?

Sometimes when you sleep, you wouldn't have any dreams and after you wake up, you dunno what happened during the period of time when you were sleeping. It's like a moment you closed your eyes, the next moment you wake up. I call it the temporary loss of consciousness. I always think that after we die, this happens to us, the loss of consciousness part, the inability to know what happened when we are sleeping part. We wouldn't know what will happen to us after we die, no departed souls, no after-death experience, nothing. Just empty shells. Which makes it all the more scarier since we will forget our family and friends, the memories we had when we were alive. We might even forget that we ever existed.

Ok perhaps then this is where religion comes in as it gives us a sense of comfort. At least it will tell us what happens after we die. Like we may be reincarnated or go to heaven.

I'm quite afraid of death.

To brighten up this otherwise gloomy post--this is another reason why QQ should go copyright his name: