I tell you, one day when I really buay tahan and explode, that's the end of the world man.

But luckily as the saying goes, "Pretty girls have big and generous hearts", I shall tolerate. I shall tolerate all the teasings about praying mantis/ugly/stupid/etc etc. I shall tolerate and accumulate good karma for myself. I shall tolerate and reach higher levels of enlightenment. “怒而不色”, or whatever the phrase is. Soon I'll reach nirvana, float on lotus leaves, have a halo on top of my pretty head and have the "ohmmmmmmm" music playing in the background. You just wait.

And so I was pretty amused when Shuli thought I might be angry over what she said. I've been through worse things every stupid living second, trust me. Everyday my tolerance level increases.

I thought the Scholarship Day wasn't very enriching cos nothing really appealed to me. Maybe except the goodies hahahahahahahahahaha.

I realised with a little horror that I didn't have a clear goal of what I want to be in the future. I just know I want to study mass comm and do something that has got to do with media. Other than that I have no idea what specific kind of job do I want to take up. I think I shall take one step at a time and see how things go.

Whenever wls speaks to us, my mood becomes not-so-good. He adds so much pressure on us and I dun like the way he tries to "brainwash" us, or whatever you call it. He's like Zhang but worse, so his lecturing sessions become hell to me. And he's one hypocrite. Sometimes I really wonder if students really like him.

I don't mind having only yulaoshi and sulaoshi even though their ways of teaching may not be so exam-driven. At least I'll enjoy the lessons and be happier. With wls it's just how to score A, how to score A, how to score A. I'm not saying results are not important but I think he should teach us beyond the tons and tons of notes. Like how sulaoshi spent one entire lesson talking to us and telling us how we should not be so pessimistic about life and how life isn't all about mindless mugging. I'd rather have a teacher who can change my mindset and motivate me than one who relentlessly forces everything down upon me.

Maybe I'm just against wls. I realise I can't get along with teachers with the surname Ong. Maybe it's 八字相冲.

Damn it you know. Hwa Chong only churns out robotic students like a factory. No emotions, no feelings, nothing. It only cares about its A and distinctions. Where got welfare you tell me.

It's another angsty day