Sai I totally totally totally totally forgot about the stupid testimonial!!! Argh...shall do it tomorrow.

Today is yet another wasted Sunday. I woke up with a very very very bad headache, took panadol and went back to sleep. When I woke up again in the afternoon, I kept having diarrhoea :( Supposed to do zuowen now but I'm still stuck with the bloody maths. Today is so not a good day...

Once again, sorry sorry for tricking you. It was like an act upon impulse. I ended up feeling very guilty for the entire day...sorry!

Rocker dad thought 5566 split cos he saw Shaowei in 183 Club on TV. I was so surprised when he asked me if 5566 is still a group cos I never knew he knows who is Shaowei. Or even 5566 for that matter. Actually the fact that he asked this type of question is surprising enough.

But then again this is the dad who got very excited during Superband finals when he realised one of the guys in Mi Lu Bing shares the same name as his daughter -_________- 3 plus hours' worth of Superband and that was the only thing that got him excited. I dunno what to say.

I MUST finish my zuowen by today! Or else dun sleep.

Liting the pretty girl~who started calling me mantis first :(:(:( and is a great person to hang out with! She has a very cute nephew whom I really want to meet. Love~~~

My maid Chaiti who never does any chore before and likes Goong as much as I do!!!

Liting again~she looks coughcutecoughcough in here

Jiayan the pretty girl! Sings very well too :)

Wankai my doppy aka pretty girl!!! Can tell the similarities by seeing how pretty we are :) Is very tickled when I say "disturbed" for some weird reason but I love you all the same :)

Hueysun my zhen ming tian zi! (We have similar blogskins, and it wasn't prearranged or anything) MUACK MUACK MUACK

Miss Neo and Liting again again. Look abit alike hor! The face. They share the same chi name!!!

The irritating pig who looks like a psycho most of the time. Is possibly more vain than I do. Is self-delusional cos he thinks he's shuai. Is very stingy. Does stupid things all the time. Likes roses. Is generally ok if he doesn't open his stupid mouth.

Yulaoshi is my fav teacher. He teaches us more than any teacher ever does. Very funny and cute and knowledgable. LEP lessons are always very enjoyable because of him. The thing I respect most about him is that he is never driven by results. I will miss him greatly.

Miss Lim the very pretty and adorable Maths teacher. She stays at Hougang Ave 8 too! And she admitted that we are her liveliest Maths class :):):)

Miss Neo again! She praised me for my 自拍 skills. Hehehehe. I think we are her liveliest class too. Though I never really listened during her lessons =x

Willy who has never been caught for his long fringe. Is irritating as well cos he likes to blow at my hair and squeeze my bottle. I really marvel at his singing skills and passion for music, he's constantly writing hokkien songs. Good job! I like reading his blog. One of the few that can make me laugh out loud.

Fengyi who smiles more than she talks. She can sing very very very very well! Plus she's one of the kindest souls I've ever met. She is supportive of anyone who pons lessons or school. I like reading your blog Fengyi! But no tagboard cannot comment :(

The idiot who derives joy from bullying me all day. Has an orange bag which is often mysteriously locked. Is also self-delusional cos he thinks he's the President and cos he thinks I'm stupid ugly and not a girl. Likes Kelly. AND PLS NOTE HE HAS THE SAME SMILE AS FENGYI. And pls ignore the stupid people at the back obviously they never die before. -glares- I'll try to come up with a chi pun soon.

Minsee who is a very humourous and cute person. She's very nice to talk to. Sometimes she does stupid things unknowingly and they never fail to crack me up. I think her growl is very funny. She thinks the things I say are funny even though I never think so. We often join forces to beat the guys. I will miss Teacher Tay. Sorry again for making you wait :(

Liuzee who refuses to acknowledge the name QQ. If he rebonds his hair it'll probably be as long as mine haha. Is totally not appreciative of the Mr Q song I sang for him. First time I sang for people you know :( Dunno why he has that stupid expression. Very torturous to take photo with me meh?

Honyi Ponyi who is very cuddly and short. Does hilarious actions that can make all of us laugh until peng. Is possibly the only person who is willing to do stupid things with me at the class bench where everyone can see us. Likes Sammi alot. I 佩服 her for her energy and drive and for having very clear goals. Another person I will miss badly! Unless we go to NTU together and be roomies :)

LEP lesson today was very 伤感. I supposed yulaoshi could have ended the lesson very early but he didn't. He just kept on talking. Could he have seen our desire for the lesson not to end? Or maybe like us, he wanted to have a proper closure to the lessons we had with him during these 2 years. To me, it just didn't seem right to end the lesson early. The memories wouldn't be complete.

Whenever yulaoshi asked "你们有什么问题吗? 你们有什么要讲的吗?" my heart would be filled with sadness. I guess most of us felt that way too. Those questions he asked kept reminding me of the horrible reality that the lesson will end some time. I didn't want him to ask the questions, I was yearning for the lesson to go on for as long as it could. I suppose everyone thinks the same way.

The final greeting to yulaoshi was the loudest we ever gave to a teacher, but I dun think it could mask the sadness and the 依依不舍 all of us felt. As we all cheered for yulaoshi, there was this ache in me. I was so overwhelmed by all the emotions. I could feel tears in my eyes then, but I didn't cry. Right now all the tears accumulated in my eyes just keep flowing out. Cannot stop. Very stupid.

Dear A12,

Thank you thank you thank you for everything. Thank you for being a part of my life. Thank you for all the joys, craziness and laughter. Thank you for letting me know each and every one of you though I think I can still do more to know some of you better. Thank you for being different from the other Arts classes (in a very good sense) and making it comfortable to be in the class. Thank you for all the times we spent together. Thank you for the captain's ball game I really enjoyed myself. Thank you for accepting me and my craziness at that. Thank you for being A12 I enjoy being in the class. Thank you thank you.

I really hate it when we have to part just as we become closer and get to know each other better. Cos then when we part, we'll probably have a tinge of regret in the sadness we feel. It's this regret that will pain me most. Life is pretty warped in this way. We often start to cherish only when we are about to lose something.

There are so many things I want to hold on to but they are slipping away fast. So fast. Too fast it's scary. If only time can stop at this moment...

Was feeling very apologetic towards the guy I sat next to on my way home today cos I stank like _______ after PE. I could have just stood all the way, but then my back was killing me. In my heart I said sorry many times. I supposed he was quite irritated with me. But then I wondered, if guys smell even worse than girls when they stink, then maybe to him I still smell quite pleasant so perhaps he could tahan. Haha.

In case you are wondering, my back is still hurting.

It seems very surreal that tomorrow is the last official day of school. It's like I dun even feel as if prelims are coming (which is a very bad thing I know but somehow just can't feel the stress leh). It's as if I'm still a J1 happily leading a rather relaxed school life. Time really passes damn quickly man. Soon prelims will come, then As, then my birthday heh. 11 Dec. Big hint.

2 years are too short for us. There is some kind of a 依依不舍 feeling. It's like just when everyone starts to know everyone well and begins to come together, it's already time for us to part. Then we will all start to wish for more time, or maybe regret that we got together too late. Soon then we will all go our separate ways. I dun even know how many of my friends will I still keep in touch with 20 years down the road. Hopefully all lah hor. I'm sure everyone will want to keep in touch with me :):):)

Despite how I dislike the school, I think I'll miss it when I graduate. I'll miss my friends, the teachers, the classrooms, class benches, lousy canteen food, the joys, the sorrows.

Still have to do stupid zuowen. Damn.

First Liting and I nearly died of laughter in the toilet, then Clarence had to break the table, then Minsee had to draw her punk 仔 and punk 仔's girlfriend 圆圆. I can't even open my mouth without laughing. Even now I still find them extremely funny. I think my stomach muscles are strengthened after today.

Kim Sam Soon is very funny!!! I like the girl alot. And the guy also cos he's shuai. Haha. Actually from some angles I think he looks like Shuli's and my idol. Really! I was watching the show today when I suddenly realised that. And I admire the actress for putting so much weight just for the show. Even now she cannot shed all of the weight she had to gain.

I think after Kim Sam Soon Goong will be next. Die lah why are all the good shows only showing at this point of time...

I lost my calculator. Damn sad. It's only like 3 years old.

Because I was irritated that I lost my beloved calculator, I almost snapped and bit this guy's head off just now. He was so irritating, mumbling loudly, making all sorts of stupid comments and saying crappy things when this poor girl here was trying her very best to do all the stupid integration questions which were like shit. And it didn't help that she was using a malfunctioning calculator. Grr. I was this close to throwing the stupid calculator at him and asking him to shut up about how he knows how to integrate big deal lah argh!!!

Maybe I'll bring ear plugs next time. Damn shitty.

New word: Brainbo. Means pretty and smart, a friend of Rainbow.

-Highlight my hair with red streaks! Dunno why red but I just think it's cool.
-Learn driving.
-Learn korean and watch those k-dramas without needing subtitles!
-Possibly relearn my jap.
-Go travelling.
-Return to Taiwan I miss the place loads!!!
-Meet up with 4e7 I haven't seen them since 43673292308 years ago.
-Watch all the dramas I missed out until my TV explodes.
-Sleep as much as I can to repay my sleep debt over the year.
-Find a job probably.
-Be with my friends everyday.

Funny how I got my after-As life planned out properly and yet I can't plan what exactly I want to study everyday. Grr.

PLEASE FOR GOODNESS SAKE when you want to say something don't say halfway and just leave it hanging there it's damn damn damn damn bloody irritating why can't you just say it all out?!?! Damn irritating to go "blah blah blah...SUAN LE" or "Nvm let's put things behind us dun talk about it anymore" when you just barely started and no one got the picture yet and you just jolly well pretend nothing has happened or worse still pretend that you didn't talk halfway. If you really want to suan le perhaps then you shouldn't have started the topic at all in the first place otherwise it's really rude and irritating!! I really can't understand why would some people want to do that AND why some people cannot tell that you are irritated which is like duh so obvious because they are the ones who caused you to be pissed off!!! Argh!!!!!

Man a little thing like this can get me so so so so pissed off. Never ever do that I tell you.

Grr. Shall listen to mr brown to make myself feel better.

Went to watch fireworks after dinner and it was simply beautiful despite having some stupid trees which kinda blocked my view. Once again I envisioned myself setting fire to the trees. Anyway the fireworks were breathtaking. I like the gold fairy-dusty one the best. Everyone were like cheering together and the fireworks lasted for a good whole 10 plus mins. It was like nothing else mattered except the babies and the fireworks then. Nearing the end the sky was full of fireworks it was so beautiful I wanted to dance among them like some kind of fairy you know. I think the woman in front of me was quite irritated cos I forgot that she existed and kind of put my phone on top of her head to take pictures. Opps. Haha.

I slacked alot today. Didn't do much. Sigh. I was watching NDP at home when I thought:
-Maybe the President should bring his wife along with him for NDP next time so it won't be so sian. At least he'll have someone to talk to. I suppose it's utterly boring to sit alone.
-What will happen if the President says no when the commander asks him for permission to do whatever he wants to do?
-It would be nice to have a female President.

I was doing research for PC presentation and I found out that the author was a male. And there's nothing much about the novel on the net (not even on Sparknotes) so I suppose Clarence and I are dead for presentation. Cos I also cannot find any humour. The novel is supposed to be a satirical one with tons of humour. Argh why are we so suayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...

I've always thought that I'll be forever stuck in the happy teenage years, so it's quite unbelievable to think that I'll be going to uni next year, be working in a few years' time, be a full-fledged adult (and watch R21 movies heh) in exactly 4 years' time. It's like what used to seem so far away now becomes to close to us, a little too close for comfort to me. I'm pretty happy with what I have now, so I suppose I'll be quite sad when my age hits the 20th mark. That's kinda old, and it restricts you from doing the 45873920938173 happier things you used to do when you were a teen. I dun suppose I'll still go round hitting/ headbutting people when I'm 23 or something people will think I'm siao. Nor can I still open and close my palms right in the face of my colleagues. It's just not right for that age. That's why I dun think I'll enjoy life as an adult.

The photos left me with an unexplainable ache. I think we changed alot, at least I think I changed alot lah (more chio can ahaha). And sometimes I wonder if these changes are good or bad. With these changes we all lose a little of our old selves, a little of what used to be most dear to us and our friends. We have to keep continuing to learn how to grapple with the same different us which left me thinking perhaps it would be good to just remain where we used to be.

Needless to say those photos reminds me how time really passes damn quickly and we are all growing old. Sigh. Soon I'll get married and have kids. Soon I'll be a grandmother. Soon I'll wither and die away.

Today I envisioned myself burning the school and I was cheered up slightly.

Feeling rather agitated today. Shan't bother myself with those nitty gritty things which are quite none of my business.

Fullhouse Kim Samsoon Wang De Nan Ren guy SHE's Selina.

Still a tad disturbing.

And I dun see the point in having assembly at 7.30. In the past when I was late, I used to wander around TCHS and I see NJ people walking leisurely to their school. Why can't we start at 8 or something? Scrape the stupid assembly. It's no difference from sec school. And I dun understand why we can only leave school after 1. Not that anyone cares anyway. People just leave all the same.

My dad expressed his surprise at my C5 for GP. Too lazy to explain myself to him.

I shall look at my timetable when I'm free and hopefully choose 1 day to pon and relax at home I'm very sick of school.

I think something is wrong with me. I was hungry like shit in school today but I couldn't eat my dinner just now. :(

Grr. When I'm rich I'll hire an arsonist to burn the stupid school down.

Minsee and Fengyi: Good job! I like your lesson today. It's one of my most enjoyable lessons. At least I could make some intelligent comment for like the first time. The poem was really interesting. I never wrote so much notes for PC before and I think you 2 were very thorough in your explanations. And sorry! I didn't think I did justice to the poem when I read it cos some stupid person had to laugh and remind me of the stupid thing he pointed out earlier. You can punish him if you want.

Fengyi you should have spoken more :(

Maybe I'll be absent on 17 Aug.