Which goes to show the way they selected their students. Heh :p

HAPPY!

I am so so so so sick of work. Work is sapping my energy away everyday. Work is so routine, so mundane, so tiring. I wonder how adults stand it - sitting in the office all day, the only breaktime is during lunch, having no school holidays, no early dismissal, etc etc. School isn't half as boring or life-sapping.

And so I conclude school is much better than work (even though I embrace the idea of not having homework and exams when you're working haha) because you get to go home early, you get to have many breaks in between lessons, you get early dismissals, you have fun attending all sorts of activities, you get school holidays, you get to pon school and lessons without producing MC, you don't really have to be responsible for your actions the way you need to be when you're working, you have friends who will go through thick and thin with you, but most importantly school life is less stressful. Tests and exams can make us very stressed yes, but it's only temporary, unlike work. And you don't have to spend money buying clothes when all you wear in school is uniform. Haha.

I can't wait for 6pm to come and it's only 10.30am now. Goodness. How am I going to survive the day............

I don't think I have the stamina to wait till end May before I quit my job, but for the sake of money I will perservere.

I can't slack anymore, my team leader is watching my back. Stupid people who call during weekends.

Which is quite scary come to think of it, because I don't want to be an apathetic teen. As in, I do read newspapers and stuff to keep me updated about the world around me, but whatever happens don't have a huge impact on me. I don't sit down and really think deeply about the issues, it's more of a read-and-forget-about-it kind of thing. Sometimes I will ask myself, "So what's the big deal about this anyway?" and this frightens me because common sense tells me there is The Big Deal, but I just can't see it no matter how hard I try.

I dunno why am I like that, is it because I'm immature in thinking? Because I'm too happy a person? This is quite frustrating you know, seeing how I'm heading the Big Two in 2 years' time and I still don't quite give a damn about the society I'm living in.

I will read the newspapers everyday (not only Life! which is what I only read in the past), and force myself to think. One bad thing about not going to school anymore is that somehow I lost the ability to think in the GP/Econs/Lit-essay-writing-way. Which is why I don't mind going back to school again, to get my brain working. Not to mention I can slack during weekends, public holidays and school holidays. Heh. Working life sucks.

Honestly I don't think I did my best for the interviews, half the time I was just crapping. Partly because I didn't prepare well? But the questions caught me off guard. Well, if I get selected, it will be one big miracle.

Sighhhh.

I dunno how to prepare for the written test and interview. I suck at current affairs. I don't think I can write very well. I think I will stumble during the interview and my mind will go blank. I think mass comm will not want me. Howwwwww...

Maybe I should have a shouting match with all those idiots who dare to shout at me on my last working day. Haha. Or note down their numbers and give them prank calls when I'm free. These morons get onto my nerves seriously.

Sometimes when I board the train home, I will look at the people around me and wonder if they are one of the demanding idiots whom I spoke to earlier in the day and who never fail to make me angry. Maybe one day I would have spoken to everyone in Spore! Gasp.

Anyway, I received the letter from NTU, asking me to go for the written test and interview on next Saturday. Looking at the letter made me nervous, but relieved nonetheless cos my application went thru in the end. I seriously dunno what to expect. Some said the written test is just MCQs, some said short-answer questions, some said essays, some said current affairs. But the prof said it to test our language and writing abilities. Who should I believe? And what will they ask during the interview? What should I wear? I dun even know a single thing. Have to start preparing now...argh. I just want to ace the test and interview, get admitted into mass comm, and this will be one of the best things that have ever happened to me.

Next Sat will be my darling ninny's birthday, hopefully the birthday girl's good luck will rub off me. Haha.

I was talking to my colleague abt how I chose NUS and NTU, and he asked me, "Isn't it better to go to NUS instead?" Actually his remark disturbed me quite abit. Because it has been bugging me quite abit that NUS enjoys a better reputation than NTU, and even my relatives thinks NTU is simply not good enough (ok lah, but usually I dun care what my relatives think anyway haha). Bah. But I suppose this time I should learn my lesson and just pursue what I really want. I rather do something I enjoy, so the uni life won't be too difficult for me. Quite a struggle between the name and the passion, to me at least lah. But now since I've chosen what I want, I should really straighten out my thinking and not simply neglect this dilemma which I've been doing so for quite some time...

If I can really get into mass comm, then I'll be able to do all the broadcasting and advertising stuff, which is something I'm really interested in.

As usual I'm rambling again.

I hope OJM is doing well in the army. Somehow I got a feeling that he won't really get used to the environment there..sigh. Hopefully he doesn't get into trouble, find good friends, and not meet anything he doesn't want to meet.

3 mins till knock off. Weeee!

Tomorrow is my off day!!! Damn happy. I shall just slack at home and watch all the TV I can.

Actually now I can't wait for 恶作剧之吻II. I really like the drama alot, to me I think it's better than Hana Kimi. Plus my nan xue zhang will also have a role in the sequel. Woo! Not to mention seeing Wang Dong Cheng.

I am so tired, I'm not thinking anymore. Tatah.

Sometimes I think it sucks to report to work. You have to interact, smile, joke, talk etc etc with the people around you just like some PR manager. And it's quite tiring to do so everytime you're in the office. Worse still you cannot really put on a dulan face, sulk around and refuse to talk to anyone cos obviously it's not really right and your colleagues will start wondering what the hell is wrong with you and they'll start gossiping around behind your backs. Bleah this is so sickening you know. It's like we're some kind of clowns or something.

Luckily I have my off day tomorrow, so that I can time to myself and do the things I want. Like going to the library to borrow books, walk around aimlessly and drink bubble tea with chewy pearls. Not to mention buying new sandals cos mine just died today. Plus watching Jacky Wu's repeat show, the final episode of the 9pm show on channel8 and the HK vampire show which will air at 12am. Then put facial mask cos my pimples are popping out and this is causing me much irritation. Basically just slack my ass off.

I am blogging with much ease cos no one is watching my back. Haha! And there's no one to disturb me cos almost everyone left already. I quite like the later shift actually, if not for the fact that calls start coming in at night.

I want to go to Taiwan! Boohoo. I want to buy things, eat things, buy things, eat things. I miss shilin and all the Taiwan shows. I miss the bustling, neon-lit streets of Taiwan. I miss the friendly people there.

Seriously I think I will want to stay in Taiwan for at least a year when I'm older and have the moolah. To soak into the Taiwan culture and have fun. Even though I know being a tourist and resident are two vastly different things. Still, I'd like to try. Then maybe I'll meet my nan xue zhang on the streets one day and he'll fall in love with me. Hahaha.

Some customers are really stubborn. If they think whatever we ask from them is like asking them to slice off their own flesh, then maybe they should just remain where they are and not come to a place where they will meet communication problems. Bloody hell.

I got a feeling the air in the office is very dirty which is why pimples are appearing on my face. This is so irritating. I'm not keeping to my resolution at all!

I have 1 hour more to go. Can 9pm hurry up and come please.

Old peas(if you have the time and stamina to read this far haha), let's go out for dinner one day! I miss you all. We need to catch up plus I want my very belated present. Haha. Plus we all need to splurge our hard-earned money to justify the shit we suffer from work.

Minsi let's go shopping when we get our pay!

WHY CAN'T SOME PEOPLE UNDERSTAND. Here we are trying to help them(not much but we're still helping them in a way aren't we) and the morons think it's a waste of time talking to us. Argh. I think I still need time to adjust to the whole irritate-customers-is-my-main-policy thing.

I started blogging this entry around 6 plus pm and I'm just jotting down whatever random thoughts that come to my mind. It helps alot to vent my frustrations this way, never mind if you catch no ball when you're reading this. I dun make much sense most of the time seeing how I'm quite a nonsensical person.

There are not many calls today. Heng ah.

I am very very hungry I am going to die..................................................I realise I eat alot recently. And I'm constantly hungry. Hopefully I dun get any tummy from eating so much. Haha. And I haven't exercised for a long long long long time. I think it's time to do some simple situps when I'm free. I mean I will get tired and out of breath easily from chasing the shuttlebus! This shouldn't be the case when I used to run all the way from the hc canoe doing-chinups area to central plaza. My stamina is gone...maybe I should hit the hougang gym weekly.

The pimple on my face is bloody itchy and I cant scratch it! Damn.

29 more mins to go.........

Tang Yu Zhe is very shuai and he has a sexy voice. I like to hear him talk.

YES I SHALL PACK UP NOW. YAY!