Hello all.
I've decided to take up NUS law instead, after 3 days of being caught in a dilemma. I was so confused and all that I couldn't sleep at all on Saturday, and in the end a pimple appeared on my face. Damn!
Truth is that I didn't apply for law in the first place and I changed my mind after that cos I felt that I deserve something better...there's this nagging thought that I won't feel justified if I just chose fass straightaway. There's nothing wrong with going fass of course, but that was just how I felt.
This law application ended up with me going for the stupid test and interview. At first I didn't tell anyone about this at all, cos somehow I was feeling insecure and paiseh, so I dun feel comfortable letting people know lah. But in the end of course I told only like a less-than-handful of people. Not that I dun trust my other friends, it's somewhat of a psychological prob I had. And I'm not sneaky as well :(
Seeing how I fooled thru the interview and test, of course I got rejected by law. I won't say the rejection didn't affect me at all. I was disappointed, and mainly disappointed with myself cos I didn't treasure this rare chance given to me. Imagine the number of people who would want to have this opportunity which I kinda wasted. So there's this tiny regret. Sometimes I found myself thinking, "I could be part of them." And since law didn't want a pretty girl like me, I didn't tell everyone that I went for law...I dun see the point.
So I pretty much prepared for my mass comm life in NTU, though not having minsi as my roomie anymore was a major bummer. It's like suddenly I dun quite look forward to uni life that kind of thing. Look at how important you are to me darling minsee! Haha. So anyway I began to accept that I gonna be part of NTU, going to study there, etc etc. And when I got my freshmen package, it's like everything is more or less confirmed and settled.
And then this is when some greater powers up there decided to play a major prank on me. On Friday right after I did my med checkup at NTU (It cost me 25 bucks! Damn ex), I realised I got a missed call from NUS. Of course I didn't know it was NUS then lah. I presumed it was some wrong number and didn't bother to call back. The next time the person called, I didn't answer the phone again. I guess this was when the person buay tahan and called my house and told me the new offer they gonna give me.
My mind was in a complete blank then, and the first thing I said to her was "Oh my god". Haha. Then obviously I asked her when do I have to reply her, what about my admission to NTU that kinda standard thing. But after I ended the call, this was what went through my mind.
"I went for NTU med checkup liao and it cost me 25 bucks! Why did NUS call me so late! Wait till after I went for the checkup then call me! My money how? Can ask NUS to refund me the money as compensation? Can ask NTU to send my report over to NUS?"
Then I realised I sound like one of those Starhub customers. Ee yer. Hahahahaha.
So naturally I was caught in a MAJOR dilemma cos both courses are appealing in their own ways. I asked many people for advice, and of course it's passion vs practicality. I thought maybe I'll dream of an answer but I didn't dream of anything at all! I even resorted to those online magic 8 ball, but the answers it gave me were utter rubbish.
To a certain point I even suspected that it was actually a prank call that I received from some evil people, and they probably hacked into the person's email or something to email me so I won't suspect a thing. And then I won't get into any uni! So today when I called and spoke to the person again, I asked her if this offer is still on. I wanted to tell her I thought someone is playing a prank on me, but decided not to. Cos this will make me sound very stupid.
Anyway.
My parents didn't tell me what they want me to study, cos they said ultimately it's up to me. They told me to make my own decision. My brother told me if I become a lawyer I will be murdered by the criminals whom I put to jail previously. Then after that he told me whatever I choose in the end I'll still be murdered anyway.
When I realised I have this new offer I admit that I was more inclined towards law, but I dun want to give up mass comm either. I think I'm quite a practical person actually. I spoke to my parents yesterday night about this, and even though they told me to make my own decision, I could see my dad's answer in our conversation. He would prefer me to go to law. Actually I think my mum too, but just that she didn't say. So when I told my dad this morning I accepted the law offer, he was quite happy. I can hear him smiling. Haha.
After 3 days of thinking and thinking and weighing the pros and cons, I decided to go ahead with law. Don't ask me why, I can't really explain it myself and give a concrete answer. So now all I ask is to give me your support and not ask any questions that seem to doubt my decision. Though my friends are quite supportive so far haha. This is a big kiss for you all. MUACK.
So now you all can't say I'm stupid anymore! Because I'm good enough to let them put me on the waiting list and decide that I have the calibre for their course, even though I think I'm waaaaaaaaaaay far behind on the list. Muahahahahaha. I'm just joking.
So now I've made my choice, I will fight on and pull thru the next 4 years. No regrets! I will endure all the shit I'm going to face and perservere. 加油! =D
I think this is the most coherent entry I've written so far. And one of the longest too. Haha. Remember to watch Campus Superstar today!