JOY AND HAPPINESS EVERYWHERE PEOPLE! *throws confetti*

MY LAWR HAS ENDED FINALLY AFTER WEEKS OF SHIT WORK! YAYYYYYYYYYY.

It's only when you go thru this shit do you realise how GOOD it is to have this stupid burden off your back (:

And to reward myself I watched part of DBSK FITB Concert while waiting for Kang! Wanted to squeal and scream but obviously couldn't cos there were people around me. So all I could do was smile and scream inside my head.

Though the thought that my cousin was among those many who waved lightsticks made me feel a little sad. Hahaha.

WOOHOO!

Fangirl therapy is the besttttttt!

Whyyyyyyyyyyyy.

I want to study for exams but I can't cos of LAWR. And obviously I dun want to start after LAWR ended cos it will mean I have no time to study properly.

LAWR is the devilllllllllllll.

Someone ask me out to study please. All I do at home is sleep.

Torts is about 2 weeks away and I'm still not mugging hard! Arghhhhhhhhhhhh.

Even though I am feeling better already, I still want to say this.

I screwed up OP horribly horribly horribly today. I SCREWED UP OP BIG TIME.

I was the damn first speaker of the group and I was so so so so nervous, I completely forgot my research stuff which I've been looking up for the past weeks. I forgot the speech which I prepared (I went thru the speech in my head on my way to school and everything was fine). My mind was just in a terrible terrible blank.

I have no idea why I was so nervous. It could be cos I was almost late for the OP today. Or could be cos there was a bloody video cam recording our presentation down. Maybe it was the first time I had to do a presentation for law stuff (OP for PW was quite useless shit in retrospect). Or maybe it was simply cos I wasn't very well-prepared.

The worse thing was I made a silly point which contradicted with the law. And it was not as if I didn't know what the law was. I knew the law from the start of our research and I knew it very well. But somehow during the presentation I just completely forgot about it and stated something that was totally the opposite. So when my tutor questioned me I was seriously stumped. At loss of words. Couldn't think AT ALL. Good thing Keith came to my rescue. In the end I apologised to my tutor and told her I mixed everything up and stated the correct law. I dunno if I should say that during the presentation at all, but at that point of time I felt that I had to do it to try and salvage the situation.

When my tutor asked me to refer to a case, my mind went completely blank AGAIN. I had the index of the cases we researched on right in front of me but I couldn't register anything at all. I can't even remember what were the cases about. In the end Keith helped me again and I had no choice but to refer to my case summaries.

Good thing is during the OP only my tutor was there. She did not shoot us down or anything, she guided us to the correct line of thinking and argument. And I am very thankful for that cos she tried to guide me to state a valid point, and I did. Seeing her nod was like a huge relief. And she's very understanding towards me. She knew that I was very nervous and forgot the stuff I prepared. She told us this is only the first attempt and we will get more practices next time. Before I left I told her I thought i did a bad job, and she just smiled and told me it's alright.

I TAKE BACK ALL THE BAD STUFF I SAID ABOUT MY TUTOR PREVIOUSLY. SHE ROCKS AND I LOVE HER. I WILL NEVER EVER SAY BAD STUFF ABOUT HER ANYMORE.

In any case, I felt really lousy after that. Disappointed. Dejected. Depressed. I was very disappointed with myself cos I did a really bad job. I know I tend to be very nervous and when I'm nervous my thoughts get jumbled up and stuff but still..not to this extent. I totally fell below my own expectations.

And I was affected partly cos I dunno how my groupmates will think of me after this thing. As in I dun like to leave a bad impression that kinda thing you know. But Max was quite nice. He smsed to console me later...but on second thought, he probaby smsed the wrong person hah.

Oh and Max the slacker did really well. No script or anything. His talk-cock tactic did wonders. I think he is a very smart person. So is Keith. 2 smart guys and 1 stupid girl.

In any case, OP is over and I shouldn't dwell too much on it. I resolved to work harder for Research Memo/binder and for moots next sem. I will learn from my mistakes. I will try to remain calm and go through my thought process clearly and properly. I will improve and do better (:

I think you all have seen my suffering for this LAWR OP thing quite clearly since I always blog about it haha. In case you are wondering, it's only worth A FREAKING 1.6 CREDITS. But the LAWR mod has 4 credits only hmm. I will just work harder for the remaining credits. Get a B can liao.

Am typing my script for OP on Monday. THIS FEELS 1000X WORSE THAN OP FOR PW LAST TIME.

I really really hate LAWR. And my group is so slack I really can't stand it.

My group mates keep saying we will need to smoke the tutors on Monday, but I think they are really underestimating the tutors. They used to be lawyers, for crying out loud. Who are we trying to kid man. They will know lor (pun intended yes haha) I tell you.

Suddenly I remember what my Starhub colleagues used to tell me, "If you can't help them, confuse them", or something along those lines lah.

I have to complete my script by today, memorise it tomorrow, learn all the courts and judges' names by heart, know all the key cases, memorise the dates for all the cases, try and anticipate the questions the tutors might ask, and get my group mates' arguments in my head. AND I AM THE FIRST SPEAKER FOR THE GROUP AND OUR OP IS AT 9AM IN THE MORNING. Really #$&$@&$@*!@(!#@^%$#

It is 3.01am.

I think i'm falling sick boohoohoo.