And after my near-disastrous driving lesson, I've decided to conduct an experiment. Wait for my results :)

I wanted to post photos of the fish spa thingy but I just realised my camera died! And I'm too lazy to charge the camera. 

Why is everything not going my way recently? There are these constant bouts of irritatedness and stress inside me which I simply cannot account for and my mood gets increasingly worse as the day goes by. And it's not PMS. My period ended last week. Unless I'm having Post-MS. In an attempt to lift my mood I:

Ate Tolberone (Tues)

Drank bubble tea (Wed)

And it's not helping a single bit. I want some time to be alone (not physically but psychologically) and try to readjust my mood but there are so many things going on now that I just can't find the time to do so. You'll just feel these ill feelings accumulating and bottling up within you and yet you can't do anything about it and so it constantly remains there. It's like a bottle of water filled to the brim threatening to spill over and yet you place a cork over the mouth to stop the overflowing but the bottle may end up exploding in your face.

Today's driving lesson sucked like hell. I didn't even know what I was doing most of the time and my mood just went completely downhill. I just felt so irritated at everything and I guess angry at myself for not driving as well as I want myself to be. The instructor could totally sense that I was feeling very pissed (though not really for the reason he thought) and had me pull over to talk to me and half the time I don't even recall the things he said happening on the road. It was a bad mixture of feeling angry, upset and ashamed and as I drove off I was actually tearing. Maybe the aircon was making my eyes dry and so the tears came more easily. But I told myself it would be stupid and absolutely embarrassing to cry in front of the instructor and I must not be beaten so easily.

I think I'm going crazy.

And my head is still aching.

Honestly I dun really like it. The song sounds choppy to me :\ I dunno if it's because the boys are not proficient in Jap or because it's just the Jap language itself OR because I'm used to the Korean version; the song just doesn't flow very nicely to me. And some of the boys sound different! Like Siwon and Kyuhyun T_T

And the rap is ? I think Kibummie could have done a better job? I was a lil disappointed in his part seeing how he can speak English and all but somehow his rhythm is kinda off. Eunhyuk is good though! And the English rap makes sense, which is honestly like wow!

Anyhow I still sarang all of them <3.

I lost my train of thoughts cos I went off for a while to watch the chinese version MV and I decided I really don't like Zhou Mi hahaha. Anyway I saw The Source of Entertainment at the driving centre today and I got a big shock hahaha. Haven't seen TSE around the centre previously though. Well let's see if I get to see TSE on Friday or any other day when I go for my lessons for that matter.

Actually I am very high and happy recently due to SuJu. Seriously those boys are full of crack. I'm finishing SuJu Full House soon but I am going to rewatch it. Their English lessons are LOL and they keep doing all sorts of random funny shit. And Kibum is love (L). And the hardworking me actually paused the show a few times to revise my Korean okay! I so super rock hahaha.

And I'm going to have my first Korean oral test in 2 weeks' time! So exciting. Though I just have to say 3 short lines.

Oh ehyo ehyo ehyo ehyo boshing the sheep~

I'm done with EHB already :( Seriously why do they only have 13 episodes?! SBS should have extended it or something, just look at the absolutely wonderful benefits of EHB: 

-You get to learn so much more than your bio lessons put together.

Honestly. How can you get so many benefits in a variety show? 13 episodes are simply not enough :( Can just hope for a Season 2 with SuJu again but I highly doubt they will have the time to cohost and all.

So to sustain my SuJu high, I'm watching SuJu Full House! I know it's super slow for me seeing how it was aired nearly 2 years ago but better late than never right :) 3 minutes into the first ep and I'm spazzing over Kibum already.

And after that I'll rewatch EHB again!

And Boonying I will get the HQ vids from you :) Sarang

Ok I'm back to watching EHB! I was watching the part where EeTeuk flew into the air and kept asking why was he placed in group2 it was so funny I was laughing so hard and then I decided to post this random post.

:D

I was supposed to learn how to change lane, check blind spot, stopping at and moving off from the kerbside etc today, but my instructor taught me zilch. Absolutely nothing! There wasn't even an introduction to the lesson, like what was I going to learn today. He just told me to drive on, while happily humming to himself. Otherwise the only times he spoke were when he asked me to make turns, overtake, change lanes, or when I made some mistakes while driving. He didn't even tell me how to do those stuff! I didn't even stop at the kerbside today for goodness sake. And we did the changeover thingy only once today. I had to drive out of the centre and back by myself while listening to his instructions. My 5th lesson only leh! That instructor is just super slack. Seriously -.-

Even so he let me pass the subject when I learnt zilch. I was like wth! He only told me about blind spots when I asked him at the END of the lesson lor. Everything just felt so 莫名其妙. I enjoyed today's lesson though, it wasn't as stressful as the previous lesson where another instructor was so critical I got extremely pissed with him (and myself for driving badly) and used 4 swear words in a row when my engine died. And he became nicer to me after that hahaha. I think he got scared of me.

I want to get my licence quickly leh :(