Why is everything not going my way recently? There are these constant bouts of irritatedness and stress inside me which I simply cannot account for and my mood gets increasingly worse as the day goes by. And it's not PMS. My period ended last week. Unless I'm having Post-MS. In an attempt to lift my mood I:

Ate Tolberone (Tues)

Drank bubble tea (Wed)

And it's not helping a single bit. I want some time to be alone (not physically but psychologically) and try to readjust my mood but there are so many things going on now that I just can't find the time to do so. You'll just feel these ill feelings accumulating and bottling up within you and yet you can't do anything about it and so it constantly remains there. It's like a bottle of water filled to the brim threatening to spill over and yet you place a cork over the mouth to stop the overflowing but the bottle may end up exploding in your face.

Today's driving lesson sucked like hell. I didn't even know what I was doing most of the time and my mood just went completely downhill. I just felt so irritated at everything and I guess angry at myself for not driving as well as I want myself to be. The instructor could totally sense that I was feeling very pissed (though not really for the reason he thought) and had me pull over to talk to me and half the time I don't even recall the things he said happening on the road. It was a bad mixture of feeling angry, upset and ashamed and as I drove off I was actually tearing. Maybe the aircon was making my eyes dry and so the tears came more easily. But I told myself it would be stupid and absolutely embarrassing to cry in front of the instructor and I must not be beaten so easily.

I think I'm going crazy.

And my head is still aching.